In the final act of cruelty, God himself decided to take all my wishes, words and desires, and bestow them to another. And just like that, that other person has all her wishes granted, and she instead gets the prize I have so desperately wish for. And all I am left with is an emptiness inside that is so black, so devoid of feelings, I don't know whether to cry or to hit something.

Why God? Have you abandoned me?