In a brutal world of people who don't know what they want, cynicism is my defense. Show me a man who means what he say, and I'll show you the fool who believed.
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Did you...
...get the phone? I'm gonna go have a look at it tomorrow. Can't believe I'm turning into one of them fanatics!
Friday, September 24, 2010
Monday, September 20, 2010
Logic Defying Logic
Perhaps the only logic to explain all this mess is that logic is relative. What seem like common sense to some, may appear to be twisted logic to others. What I saw were possibilities; what she saw were uncertainties. While I think she is subjecting herself to cruelty and imprisonment, she considers it loyalty and commitment.
I'd like to think that for the last 9 months, I gave her commitment, happiness and assurance. Not sure what she thinks though (hopefully "stalking" is not one of them!). Maybe I never will.
I'd like to think that for the last 9 months, I gave her commitment, happiness and assurance. Not sure what she thinks though (hopefully "stalking" is not one of them!). Maybe I never will.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Dead and Gone
Like all things that live and breathe for life and love, it starts to fade and die the moment you decided not to let it live. On its own, it will never survive the trials and cruelty of reality.
When it all happened at the start of this year, all Max was trying to do was to reach out to a budding friendship because she saw in it something special and mutual. Contrary to your believes, it did not fade like a fanciful whim. Because in spite of your skepticism, you too saw something special. And because you both let it grow, it not only grew. It blossomed, into something that's all-embracing, understanding and deeper. There were obstacles along the way, times when you both wanted to walk away and let it wilt. But somehow, that special something kept you grounded. And Max never gave up because she believed. If only you have the same resolve as she had, because what she saw was just the tip of an iceberg filled with promises and happiness, dreams and acceptance, potential and love. If only you have the same faith that she had, because you have to believe that you can make it happen. And if only you have held onto your promises, like she had.
I don't know what was it that you have, or don't have, with your current partner that made you look elsewhere and found Max. I'm not sure what were you unhappy with, that drove you to Max so quickly and hung on for so long. And it is beyond me why, after having a glimpse of a future that is so promising, you gave up on a chance to make it grow even further and instead decided that, after all this time, all the pain and tears, square one is what you wanted after all.
So, just like you said, now this special something will fade and die, but only because you want it to. Max really wanted it to grow but it's painfully stark that she could no longer hold onto it alone. To watch it all returned by you so that it would fade and die in her hands, you have dealt her the cruelest blow. Perhaps that's why Max did the only thing she knew to let go - be dead and gone with it all.
When it all happened at the start of this year, all Max was trying to do was to reach out to a budding friendship because she saw in it something special and mutual. Contrary to your believes, it did not fade like a fanciful whim. Because in spite of your skepticism, you too saw something special. And because you both let it grow, it not only grew. It blossomed, into something that's all-embracing, understanding and deeper. There were obstacles along the way, times when you both wanted to walk away and let it wilt. But somehow, that special something kept you grounded. And Max never gave up because she believed. If only you have the same resolve as she had, because what she saw was just the tip of an iceberg filled with promises and happiness, dreams and acceptance, potential and love. If only you have the same faith that she had, because you have to believe that you can make it happen. And if only you have held onto your promises, like she had.
I don't know what was it that you have, or don't have, with your current partner that made you look elsewhere and found Max. I'm not sure what were you unhappy with, that drove you to Max so quickly and hung on for so long. And it is beyond me why, after having a glimpse of a future that is so promising, you gave up on a chance to make it grow even further and instead decided that, after all this time, all the pain and tears, square one is what you wanted after all.
So, just like you said, now this special something will fade and die, but only because you want it to. Max really wanted it to grow but it's painfully stark that she could no longer hold onto it alone. To watch it all returned by you so that it would fade and die in her hands, you have dealt her the cruelest blow. Perhaps that's why Max did the only thing she knew to let go - be dead and gone with it all.
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