Sometimes I feel like giving up. Like what Cille and Joyce have been saying, it all look so logically futile there really isn't anything that's worth holding onto.
Other times, like right now, I am just giving in. Giving into the idea that all this waiting and hoping is not in vain. I really want to believe that this isn't just another long meaningless journey, but instead God's plan that will, after tumbling through heartaches and disappointments, lead me to the kind of reprieve that I have for so long fight for. Is it possible to taste heartache while falling? Is it wisdom you need to earn so when you finally get there, you no longer take for granted what you have fought so hard for? As Aeschylus put it, we must always suffer for our wisdom, so we that learn and never repeat our mistakes?
Is giving in a mistake? If I give up now, will I be making a bigger mistake?