Saturday, October 16, 2010

Maybe We're All in Denial

Why do you ask questions that you already have answers for?

Do you seek validation, or are you really so helpless that you can't even help yourself?

Is she really that important that you can't stand to lose her, so you choose to lose your sense and sensibility, and perhaps, risk losing me too?

Or maybe I should just accept the possibility that I'm really not that important after all.

Friday, October 15, 2010

Jekyll and Hyde

It's interesting to see how you get all up in arms over an SMS notification function, fight tooth and nail over it because it's your rightful entitlement.

Yet you let her push you around, dictate your every move, repeat empty promises even thought deep down you know she will never change for you. And all you can muster are silence and tears.

Where is that stoicism I see now, every time she makes you cry? Where is that fighting spirit, every time she puts you down in front of others? Are you not entitled to happiness? Or are you too weak to fight tooth and nail to stake your claim to what should rightfully be yours - freedom, comfort, choice and support?

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Still

Tired, but still waiting. Anxious, but still hoping. Miss you, am still missing you.

Monday, October 11, 2010

Miss You More

I wish the weekend never ended.

Watching a dopey No-Name watching a very dopey me, I didn't think it would be possible to miss her so. Yet here we are, unmoved in our state of withdrawal.

Poor NoMo (ok this is a better temp name than No-Name), I wish I didn't have to send you back up there again :( OK if you promise you will behave and don't bully Mimi, I promise I will let you sleep on the comfy bed, like how you were blissfully dozing away with her that day.