My heart broke into a million pieces hearing you say those words. I have been waiting for you for so long, please don't give up now? I have planned all these things that we can do together when you're here, to help you settle down. I have been looking forward to this, please don't walk away now? I have been searching and there is nothing I wouldn't do to ease your anxiety, but I guess if you don't want it bad enough and you want me to stop, it's not really up to me, is it?
If you're not here, I just don't know what's going to happen to us. If you're not here, maybe it will be the end of all my hopes. Hopes of a new beginning. Hopes of us. Maybe that's why right now, I'm inconsolable.
Please take those words back? Please tell me you're just frustrated and you didn't mean what you said? Please tell me you still believe? Please tell me you still have your reasons to want to come here, and that I'm one of them? Please tell me your future is here, here in KL? Here with me? I promise I'll do anything you ask. Please?
In a brutal world of people who don't know what they want, cynicism is my defense. Show me a man who means what he say, and I'll show you the fool who believed.
Friday, August 20, 2010
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Rollercoaster
Somedays I think I can. Other days, I can't. But most days, I just miss her a lot.
No matter how you try to dissect and analyze every fact and possibility, in the end, the heart wants what it wants. Logic simply has no place when it comes to matters of the heart. I don't know why I feel this way; I just know I do. I don't know what compels me to want to be with her; I just know it feels right. I don't know why I can't stop hoping; I just know we both need more time. I don't know why sometimes I try so hard; I just know I can't give up. I don't know why it's so complicated; I wish there's a simpler way. I don't know how this is gonna turn out; I just hope I'm ready come what may.
No matter how you try to dissect and analyze every fact and possibility, in the end, the heart wants what it wants. Logic simply has no place when it comes to matters of the heart. I don't know why I feel this way; I just know I do. I don't know what compels me to want to be with her; I just know it feels right. I don't know why I can't stop hoping; I just know we both need more time. I don't know why sometimes I try so hard; I just know I can't give up. I don't know why it's so complicated; I wish there's a simpler way. I don't know how this is gonna turn out; I just hope I'm ready come what may.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
I thought you thought we thought
I came straight home to be with you because you told me you missed me. It's OK if you no longer need me by then, or too tired to wanna hang around anymore. But at least tell me, don't just leave without saying a word. I can't read minds. And I don't expect you to read mine because half the time you assume wrong.
Question Time
If someone you love demeans you and hurt your feelings, do you try to forget about it the next day, and let that person sleep with you as if nothing happened?
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