Undeniable

You and I, we have a connection. The kind that keeps me coming back. The kind that wouldn't let me forget. The kind that makes me yearn.

Maybe you're right, that I don't really care. That it is only infatuation, a crush. Maybe I'm trying too hard to validate what's going through my head every time I think of you, every time I miss you.

Maybe I'm right too, for wanting to believe that there is something deeper. That it is more complicated than just an instinctive need to reach out to make sense of that connection. To be able to cuddle you and feel the warmth of your body. To look into your eyes when you laugh at my lame jokes. To see that smirk on your lips when you're winning an argument instead of just hearing it. To feel the length of your hair instead of just imagining it. To make it all real.

Maybe we're both right, that we're struggling to quantify this undeniable feeling, and desperately trying to reconcile our emotions with logic, because it's all too surreal that something so intangible can become this invincible link that wouldn't let us go.

This connection, between you and I. It is the very kind that I never thought possible. Raw, strong and sometimes scary, we both never saw it coming. But I see now what it means to take risks and fight for what my heart wants. And all at once, the unknown and untested are exactly what I'm fighting for and against at the same time. All of a sudden, the unknown and untested are exactly what's driving me into uncharted territory. A realm of infinite possibilities, where you could be my friend or foe, an unequal partner or uncompromising rival.

So here we are now, 6 months after that one night when 2 individuals reached out to make a connection that has sparked off all these possibilities. You may say that I don't care about you, but you can't deny that I care about the outcome of us.