Tuesday, August 24, 2010

I'm Sorry I'm an Idiot Who Can't Express Herself Intelligently

Not only have I lost my mind, I have now lost my sense.

I didn't think anything else would hurt more. But knowing that I have hurt her does. What was I thinking? I wasn't. I was too busy blabbering my mouth off and not checking my words.

The truth is, I just want to be with her so badly, but in my haste, I forced her to choose and pushed her too harshly when I have no right to. I should have been content because she's always said time is what she needs. I should have been more patient but instead now, I may have pushed her away and I have only myself to blame.

I am suppose to be there for her no matter what because I care. Because she's special. Because I want to. Because it makes her happy. Because I like it when it does. Because she's a part of my life. Because it's the best I can do for her.

Above all, it's because it's all I ever wanted.

P/S: Barely 6 hours gone and I'm already regretting my last post. I seriously need to control my emotions.

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